Hello all,
Well I have well and truly lost my sanity! I have made some very large life decisions since my last post, So I feel it best to tell you.
Stress is not good for you. I have discovered that when you are a certain age for me +30 and I'm not giving anymore away, you start to have strange things happen to you like the sweating phase. Oh my dear days.....they are horrendous, and I've been well informed by my doctor that they are not the M word, but in fact stress related. Well...If that's whats to come and it can chuffing stay in the future. If it is stress then I need to find a way of not being so stressed. So....I came up with a list of things I can do to simplify my life:
1. Get rid of the husband.
2. Sell a child that claims to be my daughter.
3. Ignore all member of my immediate family - in fact any relation whatsoever.
4. Have a foot massage everyday.
5. Claim benefits and or work from home.
6. Start a brewery.
Working logically through the above list - I can not get rid of the husband. Several reasons, mainly the fact that number 4 would be impossible to fulfill unless I pay for it - something I would need a job and or benefits as discussed in number 5. Despite his being a man, he is my soul mate so number 1 might not be an option.
As for number 2, as much as I love my beautiful daughter, having an 8 year old going on 18 is hard work. When us parents decided to become parents or in our case thrown in at the deep end, we vow to keep this person safe and secure and to teach them the ways of the world. Saying that its one of the hardest most stressful jobs i have ever experienced. Everyday is a curve ball, you just don't know what is going to happen next. This in itself makes the stress levels high, so number 2 on my list i really can not do anything about. In fact nor do i want to, I love her.
So that leaves number 3.
If only life was as easy as getting rid of the family. Is there a switch someone can invent that turns family on and off? Don't get me wrong I do love my family but man do they do your head in at times. Mum is now one step closer to getting a diagnosis of some sort. The neurologist has confirmed that there is definitely something wrong with her brain, but its not the posterior part its the top of her head, so he spoke about different types of Alzheimer's but wouldn't put a label on it just yet. So, we have to go for a PAT scan and more physiological tests to see what part of the brain has been affected. We've also been fr her ESA Assessment to see what group they put her in - The working group or the none working group. It's only been six months since we have applied so hopefully things will start moving in the right direction. I don't think I will be getting rid of certain parts of my family that easily, in fact it may get worse over time, so i think I just might opt for the holidays without family!
- Booked two weeks in Cornwall! Cottage by the sea with some nice clean and quiet fresh air!
Number 6.
Haven't a clue even to where to start so might just starting going to bargain booze and doing some market research.
Tuesday, 29 March 2016
Saturday, 5 March 2016
Morning!
Morning,
Well its been an horrendous few days...Sickness at the beginning of the week, ending the week with diarrhea. Not pleasant, and I feel exhausted so no energy to do anything.
I have plans this evening but not sure how I am going to muster up the energy to even get dressed let alone go out and be all happy and friendly. This week has not been a peoples week. I have not been in the mood for talking or playing happy. Not that I am not happy but you know sometimes your just not in the mood for people. I am the person that always talk to everyone, has a smile on her face and kindly asks "how are you?". This week I have just not been able to be happy. Everyone has got on my nervous and I felt so angry at everyone. I shouted at my Mum yesterday, she called me after getting a letter about her benefits, she was just being so negative that I ended up shouting at her. She went all silent on me and then said quietly "don't shout at me", just to make me feel bad. I did however apologize and all was well on the mother front. I just think I need to stay away from situations that are going to make me angry and stay away from as many people as possible at the moment.
Sheldon this week has been funny, almost like her knows I'm not feeling myself. He's not left my side! This is a picture of him on the bed yesterday morning....
How cute!! He's going to the vets this morning for his second lot of vaccinations.
While I've not been well, I've managed to watch lots of american drama and one thing has really stuck out for me that is how many people in the states are into counseling. Is this something that us Brits need to do? I know lots of people including myself that could do with counseling.
Maybe this is my therapy?
Well its been an horrendous few days...Sickness at the beginning of the week, ending the week with diarrhea. Not pleasant, and I feel exhausted so no energy to do anything.
I have plans this evening but not sure how I am going to muster up the energy to even get dressed let alone go out and be all happy and friendly. This week has not been a peoples week. I have not been in the mood for talking or playing happy. Not that I am not happy but you know sometimes your just not in the mood for people. I am the person that always talk to everyone, has a smile on her face and kindly asks "how are you?". This week I have just not been able to be happy. Everyone has got on my nervous and I felt so angry at everyone. I shouted at my Mum yesterday, she called me after getting a letter about her benefits, she was just being so negative that I ended up shouting at her. She went all silent on me and then said quietly "don't shout at me", just to make me feel bad. I did however apologize and all was well on the mother front. I just think I need to stay away from situations that are going to make me angry and stay away from as many people as possible at the moment.
Sheldon this week has been funny, almost like her knows I'm not feeling myself. He's not left my side! This is a picture of him on the bed yesterday morning....
While I've not been well, I've managed to watch lots of american drama and one thing has really stuck out for me that is how many people in the states are into counseling. Is this something that us Brits need to do? I know lots of people including myself that could do with counseling.
Maybe this is my therapy?
Tuesday, 1 March 2016
Oh dear - Its all I can say
Well...I'm sorry I haven't been active for a few days...I've been ill.
I had my infusion last week at the hospital and then got a sickness bug. By my own admission I am not a very good vomiting person, so much so that I think I pulled my back out while trying to stop myself vomiting! On the plus side....I lost 4 1/2 lbs at slimming world so feel back on track - yes I haven't eaten for a few days and most likely didn't keep any calories down. Traumatic experience I must say but it had a silver lining as they say.
It also meant I have had another 2 days off work which I am so not happy about. It means I've been off sick twice in the last month....I haven't been off sick in the last 5 years! I just hope they don't hold it against me.
As promised I was going to upload some photos of the cat...now I've worked out the best way of doing it!
On another note, my mum has finally decided that she needs to sell the car, she told me after confessing to hitting another cars wing mirror which I think gave her the wake up call that there is something going on in her brain and that it the Doctor was completely correct in advising her not to drive. (paused) I just had to look at my previous posts to check I had informed you of the goings on with the mother!
There is a sad note also, my mother in law lost her beautiful westie this week, a huge loss as she was such a lovely dog.
Can I ask you a question? I'm new to this blogging and I wanted to know do people use real names or do they use aliases? What about pictures? Do you add pictures of the kids or people?
I had my infusion last week at the hospital and then got a sickness bug. By my own admission I am not a very good vomiting person, so much so that I think I pulled my back out while trying to stop myself vomiting! On the plus side....I lost 4 1/2 lbs at slimming world so feel back on track - yes I haven't eaten for a few days and most likely didn't keep any calories down. Traumatic experience I must say but it had a silver lining as they say.
It also meant I have had another 2 days off work which I am so not happy about. It means I've been off sick twice in the last month....I haven't been off sick in the last 5 years! I just hope they don't hold it against me.
As promised I was going to upload some photos of the cat...now I've worked out the best way of doing it!
There is a sad note also, my mother in law lost her beautiful westie this week, a huge loss as she was such a lovely dog.
Can I ask you a question? I'm new to this blogging and I wanted to know do people use real names or do they use aliases? What about pictures? Do you add pictures of the kids or people?
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